It’s an interesting situation many of us find ourselves in. Bringing a new life into this world smack dab in the middle of a pandemic. Not a bucket list item that’s for sure.
I never thought I’d be calling around trying to find someone to deliver this baby at home the week before our due date.
Never thought I’d be crying after the kids go to bed out of worry and fear about stepping foot into a hospital to have a baby—heck, even fear of stepping foot out of the comfort of our home.
Instead of looking forward to my vacation, (I mean that’s kinda what a hospital stay is when you have almost 7 kids…) I’m trying to figure out how to get the heck outta there in as little time as possible.
I’m supposed to be sending Ty out at all hours of the night to grab whatever treat it is I’m craving that day, but instead we’re hunkered down trying to ration the food we do have because shelves are bare and limits are placed on items we need.
Instead of picking out adorable baby boy outfits and gadgets, I’m shopping for supplements, nebulizers, hand sanitizer, essential oils, and non-perishable foods just in case we need them.
Rumors of Ty not being allowed in the delivery room of his own child’s birth and having to go through labor and delivery alone. Never a situation I would have imagined being in.
It’s been easy to get caught up in the news articles, the Facebook posts, and even easier to start turning into this panicked mother living in the unknown. This isn’t how it’s supposed to be. This is baby #7, I’m supposed to be a pro by now. Nothing gets to me, right?
BUT, God.
Instead of letting fear have a hold on me, during what’s supposed to be the most joyous time in our lives, I’m choosing to trust. Trust that God will provide and protect us and our brand-new baby just as He always has.
Choosing to pray. Pray for the nurses, doctors, first responders, pharmacists, sanitary workers, military personnel, etc who are on the front lines every single day they go to work. They are the unsung heroes in all of this.
Deciding to have peace in the midst of chaos during a global crisis.
Mamas, know that it’s ok to grieve what you had planned but remain calm and flexible, knowing that birth plans change but no matter what, you WILL make it through. And the sweetest reward is waiting on the other side. 💕
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Holding onto these promises:
1 Corinthians 10:13
1 Thessalonians 5:18
Matthew 6:26
John 14:27
Psalm 23: 4
Psalm 27:1
2 Timothy 1:7 *last belly pic because I can hardly stand up these days!!
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